How My Mental Health Messes Up How Often I Blog
There’s a whisper in my brain that has kept me from posting since April 8.
That whisper reminds me that I don’t want to “bug” people too often. That people are going to get sick of me.
That people don’t really want me to succeed, and that I frankly don’t deserve to.
I’ve set a goal lately to gain more subscribers to my blog, that whisper told me not to post a “bad blog” so that if/when people visit the site one of the “good ones” is on the top.
That whisper tried to convince me I just shared an article I was fortunate enough to be a part of on social media, so people have heard enough of me lately.
“You missed the ideal time of day/day of week to post, you might as well forget about it now,” that whisper snares. “And by the way, there is ZERO SEO in your blog title. What kind of marketer are you?”
I’m working a lot on shame from my past in therapy right now, and bringing all of that to the surface allows that whisper to speak a little louder.
So here’s my post to stand up against that whisper, to just keep going.
This blog is full of things that I have to take a deep, brave breath about before I hit publish. And the part of me that wants so deeply to share with the world so that others can possibly benefit wants this blog to go even further down that path of vulnerability.
But it’s not easy, it probably never will be, and that’s ok.
Just like it’s ok if this isn’t your favorite blog I’ve ever posted, or you think you’ve heard from me a little more than you would like, or this blog doesn’t “perform” as well as the others.
I’m standing up to that whisper, to that paralyzation of perfection, and I hope it might inspire a few of you to stand up to your whispers too.
